ITZ FINALLII HERE

I DONT BELIEVE IT... WE MADE IT TO 2008... A LOT OF NEW THINGZ HAPPENED
TO ME OVER THA PAST FEW WEEKS LEADING TO THE NEW YEAR... ONE BEING MA
DAD IS NOT IN THA HOUSE, IM MOVIN... AND MA EX IS TRYNA GET BAKK AT
ME... DAMN... I THINK HE SUPRISED ME SO DAMN MUCH I HAD TO WRITE A
SPECIAL POEM.... the onlii thing IS ITS READABLE ONLII THROUGH SIDE
KICKZ...

How You Make Me Feel....
By you know who

I'm tired of being 〒НΣ onlii nigga ← out of 〒НΣ equation...
shyte.... ☆ェ☆ hurt... ☆ェ☆ cry... ☆ェ☆ live mii life as
time passes .·•☆★ＭΣ★☆•·. by... but Dº び
kare... Dº び see 〒НΣ hurt in my ΦΦ'z?

Is it your hand that ☆ェ☆ could use ² wipe away 〒НΣ tears, is
it your chest that ☆ェ☆ confide in when ☆ェ☆ think about all
〒НΣ ＧＤ /"A"\ |"N"| |"|D) all 〒НΣ bad times we HªvΞ
encountered throughout 〒НΣ years.....

Baby び.Я. § distant... § ((【D】【A】【M】【N】)) far
off.... – •●ェÐＫ●• °\(ベ)/° – anymore be
★.·•₢UZ★.·• its ridiculous... how we sorta 』Îォ€
fell off..... ☆ェ☆ thot び loved
.·•☆★ＭΣ★☆•·.... ain't that wat び sed... it
wasn't ∀ problem.. When ∀ nigga was givin び head... but now
☆ェ☆ see /"A"\ |"N"| |"|D) forsee all he darkness that lays
ahead... ☆ェ☆ talk /"A"\ |"N"| |"|D) kan keep talkin but び
wouldn't even had heard ∀ word ☆ェ☆ said....

§ –(question).... will び allow
.·•☆★ＭΣ★☆•·. 〒НΣ luxury of havin び in mii
dreams /"A"\ |"N"| |"|D) in mii thotz....or will び again throw
.·•☆★ＭΣ★☆•·. away 』Îォ€ last years
garbage?....

That is ∀ –(question) that ☆ェ☆ ask myself... day in... day
out... when び may walk out of my life.... I'm hurtin... I'm cryin...
〒НΣ pain is unbearable... no use in denyin... but び again will
never fully understand.... fully grasp 〒НΣ idea... that ☆ェ☆
∀м 〒НΣ best thing that happened ² び... /"A"\ |"N"| |"|D)
☆ェ☆ will be that special one...


SO DO YALL FEEL MY DILEMA? IDK IF U DO BUT IMMA SIT TO MYSELF AND
RECOLLECT ON SOME THINGS... HELL ITS A NEW YEAR... SO IM SHUTTIN DOWN MY
LIFE FOR REANALYZATION....IM TAKIN A LONG LOOK ON WHAT SHOULD NEVER
HAPPEN TO ME IN THE FUTURE OF MY YEAR....
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NEVER GIVE UP....

THIS TOPIC IS A TOUCHY ONE FOR ME, BECAUSE LIKE SOME OF YOU, I THINK
ABOUT GIVING UP ALL THE TIME, IT IS NOT A DAY THAT GOES BY THAT I DONT.
HOWEVER THAT EPIPHANY CHANGED FOR THE BETTER WHEN AFTER COUNTLESS
INTERVIEWS, I FINALLY SCORED ONE THATASKED ME TO COME BACK. NOW I FEEL
LIKE I FINALLY HAVE A JOB OFFER.

ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT WAS YOU HAVE TO GIVE TO GET IN THIS LIFE. I GAVE A
LOT THESE PASS FEW DAYS, AND IN TURN, KARMA DECIDED TO WORK IN MY FAVOR
INSTEAD OF AGAINST ME. WHICH I FEEL IS A GREAT FEELING TO FEEL.

MOVING ON, I WOULD ALSO LIKE TO DISCUSS LIFE. AND MINE IS GUD... AND
TOPP THAT OFF.. LETZ JUST SAY... MACY'S WOULDNT BE ANY MORE PROUD TO
HAVE ME ON THEIR TEAM...
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TIRED

MAN, BETWEEN SCHOOL, AND MY HOME LIFE... I GET SO TIRED. IM SO TIRED
IT'S TO THE POINT THAT I DON'T EVEN WANT TO COMPLETE SCHOOL ANYMORE, LET
ALONE GO TO COLLEGE, HOWEVER, U KNOW GOING TO COLLEGE IS THE ONLii WAY
UP AND OUT THE HOOD, SO I GUESS THAT IS WHAT I AM GOING TO HAVE TO DO.

THE ONLii THING ON MY HEAD RITE NOW IS THE CONSTANT THOUGHT OF "HOW AM I
GOING TO PAY FOR COLLEGE?" AND I KNOW THEY HAVE THINGS LIKE FAFSA, BUT
REALLii LET US ALL USE OUR HEADZ REAL QUIKK AND REMIND OURSELVES,
THEYCOVER ONLii A SMALL PERCENTAGE OF WHAT WE REALLY WANT THEM TO PAY.
THAT CAN BE ANYWHERE FROM 1,000 TO 500... AND MAN IF THEY JUST AWARD ME
500 AND I GO TO A 12000 DOLLAR SCHOOL. I AM GOING TO BE UPSET.

BUT ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF THINGS, I ALWAYS LOOK AT COLLEGE AS A GOOD
THING BECAUSE IT'S HELPING ME IN THE LONG RUN.... MEANING THAT THIS IS A
WHOLE TRIANGULAR TRADE OF SORTS BY PUTTING MONEY IN, GETTING MONEY OUT,
AND TAKING MONEY.

THAT SOUNDZ A LITTLE WEIRD, BUT LET'S LOOK AT IT THIS WAY, I WANNA GET
MONEY AND SPEND IT... NOT MAKE MONEY FOR PEOPLE TO TAKE IT....

IS YOU FEELIN ME?
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